Musings

I need to add that I am hungry a good bit of the time.  Sometimes it's a constant gnawing hunger and I think about food a lot. (Why is everything on my Pinterest page food?)  I know there are lots of ways to curb this but time is limited sometimes. (For example I was going to cut up a cucumber to bring to work today but didn't.)  I just struggle from meal to meal and I pray for God to help me on this journey.

What keeps me going of course is my goal- the cruise. Which is now just over 4 weeks away.  I have always struggled with long term goals.  Knowing I need to lose 40 lbs and it will probably take 6 months is very daunting to me.  The last time (2012) I achieved this I did it in phases. I lost 20 lbs and kept it off for 6 months and then lost another 20.  (Yes, I wonder, too, however I could let myself get back up this heavy.)  So a 7 week goal is manageable.  I'm going to eat what I want while on the cruise while trying to keep up with exercise (take the stairs, mate) and then when I get back I'll set another reasonable goal.

I read a post on Pinterest recently that really hit home "Stop rewarding yourself with food. You are not a dog".  How true that is but still it is in my nature.  If by thinking about eating while on the cruise will get me through the next 4 weeks of dieting than that is what will get me through.

Last night at my exercise class we tried this app called "7". It's a total body workout in 7 minutes and it is very intense.  I was panting and sweating and my heartbeat was around 170 after the 7 minutes.  I am not sure how much benefit that was or how many calories you burn but it was a workout.  I am still not good at doing any exercise on my own so that class is essential.